Motivated but Confused

 Have you ever been motivated to do something, but still confused? I feel this way when it comes to my own weight loss journey. Calling it a journey is a bit of a stretch, right now I'm stalled. I tell myself maybe if I understand what I need to do, it would be better. Or, what if had more options to eat? I've come to the conclusion that no matter what I eat, if I do not feel satisfied after I am done, then about 30 minutes later I am back looking for more. I don't care how healthy a salad is for you, or how full it makes you feel. After I eat one, I'm back in the kitchen within an hour looking for something that satisfies me. I want to eat healthy, I'm motivated to lose weight. But overall, I'm confused on what to eat that will leave me feeling not only full, but satisfied. 

I'm feeling similar confusion with the stock market right now. I have goals, but right now it's just not working. What should I do with my 401k? I'm at a weird age, I'm still young enough that I have enough time to recover, but you can only watch that number get so low before you feel like you need to do something more or you will be working until you are eighty years old. And, of course with my weight loss journey being stalled, I won't make it to eighty years old. I want to put money away and be responsible, I am motivated to retire and spend more time with my family, but right now, I am very confused on how to move forward. 

Speaking of time, I would love to spend more time reading and writing. I really feel like I have a book in me somewhere. I have lots of topics I love to talk about and that I think others would be interested in. But lately, I can't even find time to keep this blog updated or exercise. I want to take the time for personal growth, but where do you take from to get more time. I have a long commute to work, but I want to be able to write down or highlight things I hear or read. That's difficult to do when driving! Do I take from my reading time to write more? It's not a horrible idea, but it sounds counterproductive. I know an easy answer would be to take away time from phone or tv, but I feel right now like I'm not really on them very much and if I completely cut them out, I go a little crazy because I have no outlet to get away from things. Reading and writing used to be outlets but now you are doing them for a purpose, so it doesn't feel like time away.  I'm motivated to grow personally, but confused on how to do it best.

Most people would read this and tell me to be patient. Just start doing something, exercise for five minutes every day and go from there. I understand, but I also know that when it comes to weight loss or exercise, things will always change. I remember when a good sit up was that your back and shoulders touched the floor and then your elbows touched your knees. Now if an expert saw you do that they would probably yell and scream at you. The way we look at food is so different today than fifteen to twenty years ago. Now we eat certain things and make the rest up with supplements. I'm not saying all of this as an excuse, just mentioning how much has changed. Same goes for the stock market, now it seems like you can gain or lose thousands of dollars in a matter of hours. Maybe I'm just older now so I see the impact more. Either way, over the course of twenty years the market fluctuates, and I will still retire. Change over time has to be expected. Everything changes! I remember thinking that when music was on a CD, it couldn't get any better. The internet was fairly new back then, so I guess I was a little off. Living in a world with constant change can be hard. We thrive under stability. We want to know what to expect around the corner. That is why I appreciate the only verse I want to mention today, Hebrews 13:8:

8 Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever.